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A letter to my children

A photograph of two children, a little girl and her baby brother, sitting inside a tee pee and smiling adoringly at one another - To my children on mothers day - Mrs H's favourite things

Dear Little Miss and Little Mister H

One of my greatest fears is that you will never know how much I love you. That you won’t understand that I feel truly blessed to have you in my life. You and your Daddy are my world. My life. You are my favourite of all my favourite things.

Sometimes I am sad, or tired, or grumpy. I might snap at you or raise my voice. I may be doing jobs when you wish I would play with you. Or occasionally, I’ll cook you pasta for tea when you want fish fingers, chips and peas.

These are silly little things that don’t matter in the long run.

Because I love you and I need you to know that. And so I wanted to take some time to tell you that you are my world. And to thank you for being my darling children.

Thank you for allowing me to be your Mummy

The process of having babies wasn’t as easy as Mummy and Daddy originally thought it would be. There were times when I feared that you weren’t in our future. That I would not get the opportunity to be your Mummy. And that broke my heart into a thousand pieces.

Yet here you are. Our two beautiful children. Little Miss and Little Mister. Thank you for entering our lives. Thank you for healing over the sadness and allowing  me to be your Mummy.

Thank you for making me laugh and smile

You both have amazing personalities. You’re very different from each other. But you’re both perfect in your own uniqueness. And you both know how to make me laugh and smile.

Thank you for making me proud

You both make me incredibly proud. I look at you and I am amazed at everything you achieve. Whether that is learning to spell and write your own name independently. Or rolling across the room to get to your favourite toy.

You’re both clever, caring, strong, funny and loving. And although I don’t want you to grow up too quickly, it’s going to be an honour to watch you grow and develop into the extraordinary adults that I know you will become.

Thank you for loving me

Little Mister H, you are a real mummy’s boy. Sometimes you look at me and I am overcome by the love in your eyes. You are devoted to me. And you obviously see things in me that I fail to see in myself. Thank you for loving me and making me feel the happiest woman on earth.

Little Miss H, you are a daddy’s girl. You adore your Daddy. And you’ve always been more cautious about telling me you love me or giving me a kiss or a cuddle. So it melts my heart when I pick you up from pre-school and you run up to me and fling your arms around me.

“It’s my Mummy. I missed you Mummy. Did you miss me?”

That is the best greeting in the world. And I’m blessed to be loved by such a precious little girl.

A photograph of two children, a little girl and her baby brother, sitting inside a tee pee, playing and laughing and smiling together - To my children on mothers day - Mrs H's favourite things

Thank you for inspiring me

Every day you inspire me. You are the best role models anyone could ever have.

You live in the moment and don’t worry about things you can’t control. Life is fun and should be full of smiles and laughter. The world is a wonderful place filled with delights – the delicate blossom on a tree, the vibrancy of a yellow daffodil, the excitement of receiving an unexpected present or being able to make mud pies in the sunshine. You remind me that I need to take my adult head off and look at life through your innocent eyes. 

Thank you for helping me like myself

I have always struggled with who I am as a person. I’ve never felt good enough.

I wish I could tell you that this wasn’t the case anymore. But sadly, I am never going to be bursting with self-confidence. I am not that type of person.

But ever since becoming your Mummy I have finally started to like myself. And that is because I can see myself through your eyes.

You don’t see my faults, my past or my baggage. You just see me. Your Mummy. And that makes me pretty darn fabulous.

Thank you for being you

Thank you for being perfect just as you are. Our sweet natured and beautiful children. Our gorgeous babies.

I look at you and I am in complete awe that your Daddy and I created you. That I grew you in my belly and gave birth to you. How is it even possible that we could have made something this precious? This beautiful. This perfect.

A photograph of two children, a little girl and her baby brother, sitting inside a tee pee and looking cheekily at the camera - To my children on mothers day - Mrs H's favourite things

 

My darling children, I love you to infinity and beyond. I love you more than you could ever understand.

I loved you before you were born. Before you were even a twinkle in your Daddy’s eye, I was in love with the very idea of you. And I will always love you.

“I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more…”

Lyrics from A thousand years by Christina Perri

With all my love forever

Your Mummy

xxxx

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12 Comments

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    Katie Heels and Hooves
    April 9, 2017 at 2:47 pm

    This is so beautifully written Lucy! You are such a lovely lovely mum and your children are very lucky to have you too xxx
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      Mrs H
      April 10, 2017 at 2:32 pm

      Thank you so much lovely. That means a lot to me. As, like most mums, I doubt myself constantly. But I never doubt my love for my children. Hugs Lucy xxxx

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    Kelly
    April 3, 2017 at 3:21 am

    Beautiful and inspiring.

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    RachelSwirl
    April 2, 2017 at 9:24 pm

    Wow these words are quite simply beautiful, what an amazing post and one I hope you print for your children to read when they are older.

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    Jerry
    April 2, 2017 at 1:27 pm

    I love how you noticed how the babies are helping you like yourself…this is me…my best friend has 3 daughters…has a son whose with the angels

    Her trust and the kids helped me so very much in this regard…helping with Nate gave me great insight into ADHD, cancer, and the death of a child…

    I’ll never be a parent but this is a close second…the youngest is about to be 18…she graduates this year…I gave her my car…well, let her mother take it over since I can’t pay for it, the insurance, or afford to maintain it.

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    Fran Back With A Bump
    April 1, 2017 at 6:58 am

    This is beautiful, thanks for sharing for #marvmondays xx

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    Lisa (mummascribbles)
    March 31, 2017 at 3:21 pm

    This is just beautiful Lucy. Absolutely beautiful. Your children are adorable and you are a wonderful mummy. You are so right about them knowing nothing about us – just that we are their mummies. That’s all that matters to them! Thanks for linking up with #TwinklyTuesday
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    Kenny
    March 29, 2017 at 3:22 pm

    I really like it, thanks a bunch 🙂

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    Laura - Postcards for Findlay
    March 28, 2017 at 10:34 pm

    Beautiful, heartfelt words. It’s so important to just take a step back from daily life and take the time to appreciate what we have isn’t it?

    That song, A Thousand Years, is on the playlist I made in memory of Findlay after he died. An accurate description of a mother’s love x

    #twinklytuesday

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    Kelly
    March 28, 2017 at 5:56 am

    I love ab honest from the heart post. Been meaning to write a similar letter to my babies. One of things I must do before I forget! Enjoyed reading that this morning xx

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    Fran Back With A Bump
    March 27, 2017 at 9:50 am

    This is gorgeous and thanks for the reminder that we should ignore the little annoying things which are nothing compared to the bigger picture! Thanks for joining us for #marvmondays x

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    Laura Beresford
    March 27, 2017 at 8:20 am

    I wrote about this yesterday for Mother’s Day too: the overwhelming love that I never realised my parents felt for me until I had children of my own. I hope they get to read this and understand the power of your love #marmondays

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