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Being alive

14 years ago today, I woke up in hospital. I was still alive. The night before I had taken numerous packets of ibuprofen in an attempt to kill myself. I can't describe in words the desolation I felt that I had not succeeded. That I was still alive. That I had to carry on living with the endless turmoil and numbness of depression.…

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Mental health Motherhood

Perinatal Mental Health #PNDAW16: It’s okay not to be okay

A faded photograph of a young woman looking wistful as the sun sets in a tropical setting behind her - Includes the title "Perinatal mental health #PNDAW16 - It's okay not to be okay" - Mrs H's favourite things

Today marks the end of the first ever Pre & Post Natal Depression Awareness Week #PNDAW16 run by PANDAS (the UK's leading pre and post natal depression charity). In light of this, I wanted to share my story of perinatal mental health. My experience of perinatal mental illnesses may be slightly unusual as I have suffered from depression for almost 17 year; most of my adult life. At times, my mental health has been terrible. At other times it has been…

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Mental health Pregnancy after baby loss

When pregnancy is a struggle

A blurry and black and white photograph of a pregnant lady _ including the title "when pregnancy is a struggle" _ Mrs H's favourite things

It is difficult to admit that something you have yearned for desperately has been a struggle. Ever since Little Miss H has been a few months old, I have wanted a second baby. The miscarriages that followed just made my desperation for that child more intense. Each loss took us further away from our longed for second child. But each loss made me more determined that we needed to become a family of four.…

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Mental health Motherhood Pregnancy after baby loss

Surviving Pregnancy After Baby Loss

Pregnancy after Baby Loss is a time of mixed emotions. There is happiness but also great worry. Emotions are heightened. This is how I survived the anxiety of my Pregnancy after being diagnosed with Unexplained Recurrent Miscarriages. Photograph is of a rainbow after a dark storm. As my baby and the Pregnancy After My Recurrent Miscarriages where like the rainbow after the storm - Surviving Pregnancy After Baby Loss - Mrs H's favourite things

Pregnancy after baby loss is a time of mixed emotions. There’s happiness and joy. But there’s also anxiety and fear. Back in November 2015, I discovered that I was pregnant for the sixth time in 3 years. We’re lucky to have a beautiful little girl. But we’ve also experienced the pain and grief of four miscarriages. Three of the miscarriages had been while trying to have our second child. And only a few months before discovering I was pregnant I’d been diagnosed…

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Mental health

Getting through November

I have to say it. I hate November. In my opinion, it is the hardest month of the year. And it is the month where I always struggle with my depression. I didn't always feel this way. As a child and a teenager I was indifferent to November. Nothing exciting happened. I spent the days waiting for December and the count down to Christmas. That all changed on Saturday, 23rd November 2002. That was the day that I made serious plans to take my life…

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Self-harm Awareness

Self-harm still feels like a very taboo subject to talk about. I've always been open in this blog. I have written posts about my history of long-term depression, miscarriages and even my suicide attempts. But somehow talking about my personal experiences of self-harm seems more difficult. Even now, as I write this I wonder what you are all thinking.…

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