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When pregnancy is a struggle

A blurry and black and white photograph of a pregnant lady _ including the title "when pregnancy is a struggle" _ Mrs H's favourite things

It is difficult to admit that something you have yearned for desperately has been a struggle. Ever since Little Miss H has been a few months old, I have wanted a second baby. The miscarriages that followed just made my desperation for that child more intense. Each loss took us further away from our longed for second child. But each loss made me more determined that we needed to become a family of four.…

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Surviving Pregnancy After Baby Loss

Pregnancy after Baby Loss is a time of mixed emotions. There is happiness but also great worry. Emotions are heightened. This is how I survived the anxiety of my Pregnancy after being diagnosed with Unexplained Recurrent Miscarriages. Photograph is of a rainbow after a dark storm. As my baby and the Pregnancy After My Recurrent Miscarriages where like the rainbow after the storm - Surviving Pregnancy After Baby Loss - Mrs H's favourite things

Pregnancy after baby loss is a time of mixed emotions. There’s happiness and joy. But there’s also anxiety and fear. Back in November 2015, I discovered that I was pregnant for the sixth time in 3 years. We’re lucky to have a beautiful little girl. But we’ve also experienced the pain and grief of four miscarriages. Three of the miscarriages had been while trying to have our second child. And only a few months before discovering I was pregnant I’d been diagnosed…

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Getting through November

I have to say it. I hate November. In my opinion, it is the hardest month of the year. And it is the month where I always struggle with my depression. I didn't always feel this way. As a child and a teenager I was indifferent to November. Nothing exciting happened. I spent the days waiting for December and the count down to Christmas. That all changed on Saturday, 23rd November 2002. That was the day that I made serious plans to take my life…

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Self-harm Awareness

Self-harm still feels like a very taboo subject to talk about. I've always been open in this blog. I have written posts about my history of long-term depression, miscarriages and even my suicide attempts. But somehow talking about my personal experiences of self-harm seems more difficult. Even now, as I write this I wonder what you are all thinking.…

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Depression and deciding to become a parent

Deciding to become a parent is a tough decision at the best of times. But Deciding To Become A Parent When You Suffer from Depression and particularly Long-term Depression

Deciding to have children is a tough decision at the best of times. Deciding to start a family when you have a long-term illness and take regular medication is another thing altogether. Having long-term depression and taking medication does not preclude women from having children. I am living proof of this. That is why I want to share my story.…

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Robin Williams, depression and me


I can't imagine the despair that Robin Williams' friends and family are feeling right now. I can't imagine the pain that Robin Williams felt when he made the decision to take his own life. But I know how I felt. I know how I felt when I decided enough was enough. When I made the decision that the world would be better off without me.…

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