How many children do I have? This is a question that has been weighing on my mind. In truth, I don't think that there is an answer that makes sense. And I wonder if that really matters. However, it still weighs on my mind. And I wanted to share my feelings in the hope that it might help someone else who is struggling with the same question.…
I’m a big fan of Rocky Road. It is definitely one of my favourite cakes. So when I bought far too many Easter eggs one year I decided to create a recipe that would use up the extra Easter goodies. Obviously, the perfect recipe had to be a form of Rocky Road. And so my Easter Rocky Road was born. It’s such an easy recipe to make and the perfect treat to serve on Easter Sunday. So I thought that I…
When I gave birth to Little Miss H, I didn't know that she was my Rainbow Baby. I didn't know what the term meant. A Rainbow Baby, is a baby that is born after miscarriage, still birth, neonatal loss or other baby loss. It refers to the bright and beautiful rainbows that appear in the sky after a storm. The rainbow doesn't pretend that the storm never existed. Instead the rainbow shines all the brighter because it has followed a moment of…
I love taking Little Miss H out to play in the sunshine. And as a family, one of our favourite ways to spend a Saturday is to go to a park, wood or stately home. Even when the weather is cold or wet, we bundle ourselves into out warm coats and head out doors. Time in the fresh air always blows away the cobwebs and puts us all in a better mood. But to make sure that we can get out of the…
Last week, I celebrated my third Mother's Day. Having suffered from recurrent miscarriages, I know how blessed I am to celebrate this day at all. Having children is much harder than it looks. Not the process of child rearing (although that has its good and bad days) but the process of creating, making and baking a baby. That is why I never take my family for granted and I am so grateful that they are a part of my life. And this year's…
Pregnancy after baby loss is a time of mixed emotions. There are many moments of happiness and joy. But there’s also anxiety and fear. For any woman, who is pregnant after a miscarriage or stillbirth, there is one thing that she wants to know. How to survive pregnancy after baby loss. Back in November 2015, I discovered that I was pregnant for the sixth time in 3 years. We’re lucky to have a beautiful little girl. But we’ve also experienced…
Having the 20 week scan on Thursday helped me relax. It was a great milestone to reach and it was wonderful to see our baby fidgeting away. I am always nervous before scans. I worry about the worst case scenario. And I sit in the waiting room sick from nerves and excitement. Thankfully, the scan went well. Baby is healthy and everything looks as it should do. And yes, we did find out the gender. Just as we did when I was pregnant…
My gorgeous blogging friend Julia, who blogs at Rainbeaubelle, writes monthly posts called Five under £5. I love these posts. I am a very nosy person by nature. And so I am fascinated to see what my fellow bloggers have purchased for under £5.00. I often get tempted to go out and buy some of their wonderful finds. I've been meaning to join in for a while. As always I have found it hard to get myself organised. I could probably purchase…