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Antidepressants And Me – My Story of Taking Antidepressants

Posted on February 24, 2018

Trigger warning: this post mentions depression, anxiety, taking antidepressants, self-harm and attempted suicide. If you have personal experience of any of these then you may find this post distressing. Next year will be the twentieth anniversary of my diagnosis of depression. It will also mark almost twenty years of taking antidepressants. That is huge! It means that I’ve suffered from depression for the majority of my adult life. If you’ve read this blog before then you’ll know that I’m very…

Reviews & Giveaways

Jack N’ Jill’s New ‘Natural Bathtime’ Range – A Review and Giveaway

Posted on September 18, 2017

Bathtime is an essential part of our bedtime routine. And it is now one of my favourite parts of the day. I love seeing my two children in the bath together laughing and giggling. The bath products that we use are an essential part of this sacred time. But both the children have different requirements of what they want at bathtime. Little Miss H wants bubbles and lots of them. And Little Mister H needs a mild shampoo that won’t…

Mental Health

The Stalker

Posted on February 26, 2017

I have a stalker. They've been a menacing presence in my life since I was 20. And since their appearance during my second year at university, there has been no escape. They've been every where I turned. Every where I looked. They threatened my life. And they filled me with self loathing and hatred. Setting me on a path to self destruction.…

Health & Welfare Mental Health

To Sleep, Perchance To Dream

Posted on April 13, 2016

Sleep is such an essential part of our lives. It is crucial to staying healthy and happy. I know that when I have a depressive episode sleep is the greatest of healers. Yet, I am embarrassed to admit that I have a toxic relationship with sleep.…

Baby Loss Mental Health

Getting Through November

Posted on November 12, 2015

I have to say it. I hate November. In my opinion, it is the hardest month of the year. And it is the month where I always struggle with my depression. I didn't always feel this way. As a child and a teenager I was indifferent to November. Nothing exciting happened. I spent the days waiting for December and the count down to Christmas. That all changed on Saturday, 23rd November 2002. That was the day that I made serious plans to take my life…

Health & Welfare Reviews & Giveaways

Lumie Bodyclock STARTER 30 review – Wake-up brighter

Posted on October 21, 2015

I have a love hate relationship with this time of year. I love taking walks in the woods and kicking fallen leaves. I love being able to snuggle up on the sofa on cooler nights. I love wearing jumpers, skirts, thick tights and boots. I hate that it is dark when Mr H wakes up in the mornings. I hate the lack of sunlight. I hate that it gets dark early in the evenings. Which means, I am dreading this weekend when the…

Baby Loss Mental Health

Miscarriage: Where Do I Go From Here?

Posted on September 20, 2015

On Friday, I had a hysteroscopy. It was the final test that the NHS will offer us in our investigations into the recurrent miscarriages. It didn't give any answers. My miscarriages remain unexplained. It could be bad luck. It could be a chromosomal issue. We might never know. And that for me is the worst development. I know, it is ridiculous to want something to be wrong. But I wanted there to be something wrong with me so that there was a…

Baby Loss

Our recurrent miscarriage story: Sadness

Posted on September 4, 2015

I have been unhappy since the miscarriage that I suffered in November last year. I'm not depressed. I'm sad. And there is a difference between sadness and depression. …