Dear Little Miss and Little Mister H
One of my greatest fears is that you will never know how much I love you. That you won’t understand that I feel truly blessed to have you in my life. You and your Daddy are my world. My life. You are my favourite of all my favourite things.
Sometimes I am sad, or tired, or grumpy. I might snap at you or raise my voice. I may be doing jobs when you wish I would play with you. Or occasionally, I’ll cook you pasta for tea when you want fish fingers, chips and peas.
These are silly little things that don’t matter in the long run.
Because I love you and I need you to know that. And so I wanted to take some time to tell you that you are my world. And to thank you for being my darling children.
Thank you for allowing me to be your Mummy
The process of having babies wasn’t as easy as Mummy and Daddy originally thought it would be. There were times when I feared that you weren’t in our future. That I would not get the opportunity to be your Mummy. And that broke my heart into a thousand pieces.
Yet here you are. Our two beautiful children. Little Miss and Little Mister. Thank you for entering our lives. Thank you for healing over the sadness and allowing me to be your Mummy.
Thank you for making me laugh and smile
You both have amazing personalities. You’re very different from each other. But you’re both perfect in your own uniqueness. And you both know how to make me laugh and smile.
Thank you for making me proud
You both make me incredibly proud. I look at you and I am amazed at everything you achieve. Whether that is learning to spell and write your own name independently. Or rolling across the room to get to your favourite toy.
You’re both clever, caring, strong, funny and loving. And although I don’t want you to grow up too quickly, it’s going to be an honour to watch you grow and develop into the extraordinary adults that I know you will become.
Thank you for loving me
Little Mister H, you are a real mummy’s boy. Sometimes you look at me and I am overcome by the love in your eyes. You are devoted to me. And you obviously see things in me that I fail to see in myself. Thank you for loving me and making me feel the happiest woman on earth.
Little Miss H, you are a daddy’s girl. You adore your Daddy. And you’ve always been more cautious about telling me you love me or giving me a kiss or a cuddle. So it melts my heart when I pick you up from pre-school and you run up to me and fling your arms around me.
“It’s my Mummy. I missed you Mummy. Did you miss me?”
That is the best greeting in the world. And I’m blessed to be loved by such a precious little girl.
Thank you for inspiring me
Every day you inspire me. You are the best role models anyone could ever have.
You live in the moment and don’t worry about things you can’t control. Life is fun and should be full of smiles and laughter. The world is a wonderful place filled with delights – the delicate blossom on a tree, the vibrancy of a yellow daffodil, the excitement of receiving an unexpected present or being able to make mud pies in the sunshine. You remind me that I need to take my adult head off and look at life through your innocent eyes.
Thank you for helping me like myself
I have always struggled with who I am as a person. I’ve never felt good enough.
I wish I could tell you that this wasn’t the case anymore. But sadly, I am never going to be bursting with self-confidence. I am not that type of person.
But ever since becoming your Mummy I have finally started to like myself. And that is because I can see myself through your eyes.
You don’t see my faults, my past or my baggage. You just see me. Your Mummy. And that makes me pretty darn fabulous.
Thank you for being you
Thank you for being perfect just as you are. Our sweet natured and beautiful children. Our gorgeous babies.
I look at you and I am in complete awe that your Daddy and I created you. That I grew you in my belly and gave birth to you. How is it even possible that we could have made something this precious? This beautiful. This perfect.
My darling children, I love you to infinity and beyond. I love you more than you could ever understand.
I loved you before you were born. Before you were even a twinkle in your Daddy’s eye, I was in love with the very idea of you. And I will always love you.
“I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more…”
Lyrics from A thousand years by Christina Perri
With all my love forever