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Gardening Myself Happy With BloomBox Club

Posted on August 22, 2017

A photograph of a woman gardening - she is kneeling by a flower bed and planting one of the plants from the Spring Outdoor box from BloomBox Club Subscription service - Gardening myself happy with BloomBox Club - Mrs H's favourite things

As a child, I used to help my parents out in the garden. And I’d always enjoyed gardening. But, until just after Little Miss H’s second birthday, I’d never had a garden of my own. After I met Mr H we lived in a flat in London and we later bought a two-bedroom apartment in Medway. It was only when we moved into our current house that we finally had some outdoor space. On the day we moved in, I…

Mental Health

The Ugliness Of Depression

Posted on August 10, 2017

On Monday the singer Sinead O’Connor posted a heartbreaking video to her Facebook page. O’Connor films the footage in a grotty hotel in New Jersey. And in it she is clearly in the middle of a depressive episode. She is distraught. Beside herself. Her thoughts tumble into one another. And as you watch you can see and hear her heart break and her soul rip into thousands of tiny pieces. It is a horrid video to watch. Especially for someone,…

Mental Health

Sharing The Story Of My Depression For Mental Health Awareness Week #MHAW17

Posted on May 13, 2017

An introductory post to why I have decided to share My Story of Depression. I plan to write an autobiographical series that documents my Mental Health over the years. Sharing My Story of Depression for Mental Health Awareness Week 2017 #MHAW17

I have suffered from depression for 18 years of my life. And I will suffer with it until the day I die. Depression is a part of me. I’ve had it for the majority of my adult life. It has made me the person I am today. I know I’ve talked about it on this blog but I’ve mainly written pretty prose about feelings or the fear of relapsing. I haven’t ever talked about the nitty-gritty of living with depression. This…

Mental Health Motherhood

50 Reasons Why I Feel Guilty

Posted on April 25, 2017

I feel guilty all the time. Mum guilt. Wife guilt. Friend guilt. The list goes on and on. And bloody hell, it is exhausting feeling this way. Beating myself up emotionally for every little mistake I make or every time I don’t live up to the image of perfection that I aspire to. But I’m human. I make mistakes and I’m not perfect. So this leads to a great deal of guilt. Over the years I have learnt that writing down my feelings…

Mental Health

15 Ways To Look After Your Mental Health

Posted on April 8, 2017

I’ve been quite open recently that my mental health hasn’t been brilliant. It certainly isn’t terrible but I haven’t been myself. I’ve been feeling anxious and unmotivated. There have been days when I have felt tearful, unable to control my mood and I have just wanted to clamber back into bed and sleep. My Mental Health There are many small reasons why my depression has relapsed. The stress and sadness of the recurrent miscarriages and the anxiety I felt in my…

Finding Happiness Mental Health

16 Fabulous Feel Good Movies

Posted on March 18, 2017

A photograph of a box of popcorn with spilled popcorn, some unravelled movie film, a cinema ticket stub and some white flowers - Fabulous feel good movies - Mrs H's favourite things

I may have mentioned that I’m obsessed with La La Land. It’s a lovely film and has become one of my favourite feel good movies. And I’m all about the feel good movies at the moment. Watching a happy movie is the perfect remedy for when I’m feeling down. They lift me up. They help me forget my anxieties and worries and they put a smile on my face. I am a sucker for a romantic comedy. And in my 20s, I would…

Mental Health

The Stalker

Posted on February 26, 2017

I have a stalker. They've been a menacing presence in my life since I was 20. And since their appearance during my second year at university, there has been no escape. They've been every where I turned. Every where I looked. They threatened my life. And they filled me with self loathing and hatred. Setting me on a path to self destruction.…

Mental Health

Being Alive

Posted on November 24, 2016

14 years ago today, I woke up in hospital. I was still alive. The night before I had taken numerous packets of ibuprofen in an attempt to kill myself. I can't describe in words the desolation I felt that I had not succeeded. That I was still alive. That I had to carry on living with the endless turmoil and numbness of depression.…