I have extremely sensitive skin and there have been many times when I have had an allergic reaction to a product that claimed to be hypoallergenic. As I have got older my skin has become even more sensitive and now, in my late 30's, I've developed rosacea. A skin condition that leads to a reddening of the face. It also often leads to my skin feeling sore and itchy, with nasty spots. I am currently 32 weeks pregnant and I have been…
Motherhood
How many children do I have? This is a question that has been weighing on my mind. In truth, I don't think that there is an answer that makes sense. And I wonder if that really matters. However, it still weighs on my mind. And I wanted to share my feelings in the hope that it might help someone else who is struggling with the same question.…
When I gave birth to Little Miss H, I didn't know that she was my Rainbow Baby. I didn't know what the term meant. A Rainbow Baby, is a baby that is born after miscarriage, still birth, neonatal loss or other baby loss. It refers to the bright and beautiful rainbows that appear in the sky after a storm. The rainbow doesn't pretend that the storm never existed. Instead the rainbow shines all the brighter because it has followed a moment of…
Last week, I celebrated my third Mother's Day. Having suffered from recurrent miscarriages, I know how blessed I am to celebrate this day at all. Having children is much harder than it looks. Not the process of child rearing (although that has its good and bad days) but the process of creating, making and baking a baby. That is why I never take my family for granted and I am so grateful that they are a part of my life. And this year's…
How To Survive Pregnancy After Baby Loss
Posted on March 10, 2016Pregnancy after baby loss is a time of mixed emotions. There are many moments of happiness and joy. But there’s also anxiety and fear. For any woman, who is pregnant after a miscarriage or stillbirth, there is one thing that she wants to know. How to survive pregnancy after baby loss. Back in November 2015, I discovered that I was pregnant for the sixth time in 3 years. We’re lucky to have a beautiful little girl. But we’ve also experienced…
Having the 20 week scan on Thursday helped me relax. It was a great milestone to reach and it was wonderful to see our baby fidgeting away. I am always nervous before scans. I worry about the worst case scenario. And I sit in the waiting room sick from nerves and excitement. Thankfully, the scan went well. Baby is healthy and everything looks as it should do. And yes, we did find out the gender. Just as we did when I was pregnant…
Pregnancy after miscarriage: Our first trimester
Posted on February 22, 2016I am now 18 weeks pregnant. This is my sixth pregnancy. And it is my fourth pregnancy after miscarriage. It is only now, at 18 weeks pregnant that I am beginning to relax a little and enjoy the pregnancy. I know that I will not be able to stop worrying until we have our baby at home. I wish that I could say that I breezed through the first trimester. That I was ecstatic when I saw that I was pregnant and…








