I don't like uncertainty. I like to have a plan. I want to know what I am doing today, tomorrow and in 10 years time. Tomorrow we go for our first appointment at the Recurrent Miscarriage Clinic. To say that I am nervous is an understatement. I have no idea what to expect. I don't know how long the appointment will last. I don't know what will be discussed and I don't know how those discussions will make me feel.…
Suffering from recurrent miscarriage was one of the hardest times in my life. The heartbreak and fear of the future were overwhelming. And it’s impossible to fully recover from a miscarriage. Even now, over three years on, I can honestly say that I’ll never forget losing our babies. But life does move on and you move on with it. And while we were going through our experience of baby loss, I did learn a few things about how to move…
Trigger warning: Baby loss. The post “I Was Hoping – Reacting To Our Fourth Miscarriage” is about baby loss and miscarriage and you may find it upsetting if you have any personal experience of these subjects. I Was Hoping – Reacting To Our Fourth Miscarriage I was hoping that this time would be different. I was hoping that we wouldn’t have to hear the words: “I’m sorry, but it doesn’t look good”. I was hoping that the fact I was fitter…
I think I have mentioned before that I suffer from depression. I have done since my second year at university. At times my depression has been horrendous but at other times I am completely happy and content with my life. I have to admit, that during the past few weeks have been struggling. This is my fault!…
TRIGGER WARNING: If you have personal experience of mental ill health or suicide then you may find this post upsetting. I can’t imagine the despair that Robin Williams’ friends and family are feeling right now. I can’t imagine the pain that Robin Williams felt when he made the decision to take his own life. But I know how I felt. I know how I felt when I decided enough was enough. When I made the decision that the…