TRIGGER WARNING: Baby loss. The post “Medical Management Of A Missed Miscarriage” contains details of miscarriage and baby loss. This week is Baby Loss Awareness Week 2018. Our first miscarriage was over four years ago, yet I can remember it as if it were yesterday. Baby loss stays with you. And though time passes the memories still haunt you and the heartbreak remains. But the loss of a baby isn’t just an emotional experience. It’s also a very physical and…
Warning: The post “I’m jealous of Bridget Jones” contains spoilers and is about baby loss. It is 23:00 on Saturday evening and I’m sitting here wiping the tears from my face. Because I’ve just finished watching Bridget Jones’ Baby and now I’m filled with a mixture of emotions. If you haven’t seen it. Then do. It’s a bloody brilliant film. And hopefully, it won’t make you cry like I have. Yet, I was watching the film and I couldn’t help…
Trigger Warning: If you suffer from depression or anxiety then you may find this post, about my current depression and anxiety relapse, triggering. “I am not a stranger to the dark Hide away, they say ‘Cause we don’t want your broken parts I’ve learned to be ashamed of all my scars Run away, they say No one’ll love you as you are But I won’t let them break me down to dust I know that there’s a place for us…
TRIGGER WARNING: Baby loss. This post details the symptoms and diagnosis of a missed miscarriage. I had my first miscarriage six years ago, back in June 2012. After being diagnosed with a missed miscarriage when I was 11 weeks pregnant. It shocked us and left us heartbroken. But thankfully, less than a year later we were blessed when Little Miss H arrived on the scene. After six years, I’ve finally decided that I want to share the story of our first…
Our first baby was due on 14th January 2013. Although, I struggle to remember the due dates for the other babies I’ll always remember the day that our first baby was due to enter our lives. Sadly, that little boy or girl was never meant to be ours to hold. At 11 weeks pregnant, we discovered that the baby was dead. Their heartbeat had stopped when I was 6 weeks pregnant. When the midwife told me that the baby didn’t…
Trigger warning: you may find this post upsetting if you have experienced miscarriages. In a little over a week our rainbow baby boy will turn one. That is a whole year of having his sunny presence in our lives. And a year of knowing that the miscarriages are far behind us. My last miscarriage was in May 2015. And in September 2015 we were given the news that the miscarriages were unexplained. That there wasn’t a known reason for our…
"A rainbow baby is a baby that is born following a miscarriage, stillbirth, neonatal death or infant loss. In the real world, a beautiful and bright rainbow follows a storm and gives hope of things getting better. The rainbow is more appreciated having just experienced the storm in comparison." Quotation taken from the Kicks Count website. Four years ago, I had never heard of the term rainbow baby. Now in October 2016, we have two beautiful rainbow babies. And they brighten…
Dear friend It is traditional in these circumstances to say I am sorry for your loss. But those words seem empty and insulting. They imply that you have been careless and misplaced something valuable... a wallet, your keys, your phone. Those words don't convey that your world has come crashing down. They don't show that your heart is splintering into pieces. They don't speak of the shattering sobs that run through your whole body late at night. They don't tell of the emptiness that often manifests…