Today is my birthday. I am now 37 years old. I am not entirely sure how it happened but I appear to have entered my late thirties. Three years of the big 4-0. And it actually feels good. I spent much of my twenties deeply unhappy. My thirties have been a turning point for me. I am now happier in my own skin. And although I still have days when I struggle, I know what I need to do to make myself…
I don't like uncertainty. I like to have a plan. I want to know what I am doing today, tomorrow and in 10 years time. Tomorrow we go for our first appointment at the Recurrent Miscarriage Clinic. To say that I am nervous is an understatement. I have no idea what to expect. I don't know how long the appointment will last. I don't know what will be discussed and I don't know how those discussions will make me feel.…
Suffering from recurrent miscarriage was one of the hardest times in my life. The heartbreak and fear of the future were overwhelming. And it’s impossible to fully recover from a miscarriage. Even now, over three years on, I can honestly say that I’ll never forget losing our babies. But life does move on and you move on with it. And while we were going through our experience of baby loss, I did learn a few things about how to move…
Believe it or not, my blog is three years old. I wrote my first blog post on 23rd March 2012. In March 2012, I had just returned to work after 3 months off sick with depression. During my time off work, I began to see a Cognitive Behavioural therapist. She suggested that I start writing a blog as a form of therapy. When I am low, I struggle to remember the things in my life that bring me happiness. I…
During my time at Cancer Research UK I changed as a person. I developed both professionally and personally. But I did not expect that working at Cancer Research UK would teach me more about life. My day job taught me some valuable life lessons. Lessons that I am not always brilliant at following. But lessons that I need to remember and that I try to use as motivation for how I live my life.…
I think I have mentioned before that I suffer from depression. I have done since my second year at university. At times my depression has been horrendous but at other times I am completely happy and content with my life. I have to admit, that during the past few weeks have been struggling. This is my fault!…
I think it is fair to say that the past month has been crap. Life has dealt us an unfair hand and we have lurched from one stressful experience to the next. It wasn’t meant to be this way. We’d just found out that I was expecting another baby. Mr H was on holiday for two weeks before beginning a new job and we had booked a few days away in Dorset. But the best laid plans of mice and…
Lessons learnt since becoming a mum Follow my blog with Bloglovin Becoming a mum has changed me. There is no doubt in my mind that the moment Little Miss H was put in my arms my world became a different place. I know things now. I know that I doubt every decision I take because it doesn’t just affect me or Mr H. We have a little person that is completely dependant on us and that is truly terrifying. I…