Back in September, Mr H and I celebrated our tenth wedding anniversary. We were lucky enough to have a weekend away. Just the two of us. And Mr H’s parents very kindly agreed to stay at our house with the kids. As we left the house on the Friday, Mr H’s mum was holding Little Mister H up by our kitchen window so he could wave at us as we drove off. It was lovely to see him with a…
mental health
Mr H, being a communicator by trade, is always reading books about human behaviour. He recently read out this sentence to me from a book by Jonathan Haidt called The Righteous Mind (the fun we have in our house!): “We are deeply intuitive creatures whose gut feelings drive our strategic reasoning.” It really connected with me because, as someone who has struggled with my mental health all my life, I know how true this is. On any day, my feelings…
Antidepressants And Me – My Story of Taking Antidepressants
Posted on February 24, 2018Trigger warning: this post mentions depression, anxiety, taking antidepressants, self-harm and attempted suicide. If you have personal experience of any of these then you may find this post distressing. Next year will be the twentieth anniversary of my diagnosis of depression. It will also mark almost twenty years of taking antidepressants. That is huge! It means that I’ve suffered from depression for the majority of my adult life. If you’ve read this blog before then you’ll know that I’m very…
This post could also have been called 5 ways I’m trying to become happier in my own skin. Because I’m not happy in my own skin at the moment. And when I look in the mirror and I don’t like the person I see staring back at me. I’m reminded of a line from one of my favourite songs: “It’s just that we stayed, too long In the same old sickly skin.” …
“The true secret of happiness lies in taking a genuine interest in all the details of daily life.” William Morris The past few months have been tough. Yet I’ve entered 2018 with a new and positive outlook. I’ve set myself some goals and I’m looking forward to the year ahead. Like most people, I’m constantly in the pursuit of happiness. I want my life to be filled with experiences and moments that make me happy. But recently I’ve realised that happiness…
Sometimes when I write about my depression the words just flow. It’s as if they were always there just waiting to be written down in black and white. On other occasions, I want to write but the words aren’t forthcoming. They won’t flow. Words are created and deleted. Sentences are written and rewritten. Paragraphs are formed and unformed. I can start a post about one thing and then it becomes about something completely different. For example, when I sat down to…
Over the past few months, I’ve begun to listen to Podcasts. One of my favourite podcasts is Happier by Gretchen Rubin, the author of The Happiness Project. In one of her recent podcasts, she shared her list of 18 things she plans to do in 2018. As soon as I heard Gretchen and her sister discuss their 18 for 2018 lists, I knew that I had to write one for my blog. It’s part bucket list and part goal setting but…
Trigger warning: If you have personal experience of suicide or suicidal depression then you may find this post upsetting. If you’re currently struggling with suicidal thoughts and you’re in danger then please call 999 and request an ambulance immediately. My dear girl As I write this letter to you, I have tears pricking the back of my eyes. My heart hurts thinking of you lying in that hospital bed. Because last night you took an overdose. It was your fourth.…








